May Update!, Kind Of...

May Update!, Kind Of...

Culture

I've been talking about ‘loss of culture’, specifically in relation to music. I was looking at the UK drill and grime genres and to me it feels like they are dying due to the lack of use, and because of this culture attached to is being lost/abstracted into something unrecognizable.

Today though, I was listening to a song with this drill beat and I countered these initial thoughts I’d had. ‘Maybe it's not factual to say these genres are dying maybe I AM just not tapped into the new budding parts of the music and therefore am not aware of the way it is being revived, and the culture is living on’.

Revamping

Socializing

My heart has been so full as of recent, I've gotten to see so many friends since finals ended, and it's been sooooo nice omgggg. I think during the winter I always forget that the key to life is hidden in the silly jokes you tell with your friends. I love talking about nothing for hours, and eating together, and giggling about the people we think are cute. It's just been 10/10 I am so grateful for the people I have in my life, and I can't wait to spend more time with them. #Ilovemyfriends

Also, quick shout out to my friends as well because they were half of the reason that Rema week didn't end me. Thank you to Sope for my outfit and helping me cut stickers, same to Tito I soooo appreciate the help with cutting stickers and helping run around the city, and to Yudi for just being around all week. Thank you to everyone who harbored me at their place and everyone who helped me figure out the situation with my bags cause I really couldn’t have handled that alone. Also thank you to everyone who collected some art from me and posted it ilyyyy.

#forevergrateful #hmutoyap #cantwaittoseeuagain

Ambition
Desire has been so heavily on my mind. My desire and my ambition. I think I understand desire and ambition as synonyms of the same feeling; I want to explore this more in a later post. I have a piece centered around ambition so I expect as I work on it, I can interrogate these concepts more. My thoughts around ambition this time came up while having a lovely conversation with a friend. It was about the feeling of wanting to succeed. This was before Rema’s concert, and I had been listening to a lot of his music.

During the conversation I brought up how I was just noticing how cocky he is, though I felt like cocky wasn't the right word, more prideful, or grandiose, or self-assured. It was hard to place the exactly what I meant but she understood.

She pointed out that she thought Rema was audacious, in the way he carries himself and through his music I think that is what I was connecting to, and that’s what I found inspiring, even in his early music he has always had this confidence that he is H.I.M. Its infectious

I'm going to start channeling more of that. I'm hungry, truthfully, restless to become myself, to create my work. I want so much it feels like I am more desire that a person. I'm entering a stage where I am actively trying to do everything I can to push myself in the direction I want to go in.

REEMY RAVE

Guy I no even won talk this matter, it don tire me but it was fun developing the HEIS art package and doing the marketing for it, I think this is the first time I've done a full roll out that was semi-planned and I learnt a lot from it. Hoping to carry these lessons forward with me. It was so lovely talking to friends and supporters about my work. I love you all so much and I feel so seen every time we get to converse about my work.

Though the week ended harshly it was still a fun time. I got good flicks, and I put my pussy into my work so I'm happy.

Upcoming Projects
I no fi rest, I hope you know. I have projects lined up back-to-back first I enrolled myself in this mural camp so I will be creating a mural over the next 3 weeks, I’m leaning into depictions of the body for it. There's this one pose that I haven’t been able to get out of my head and I think it will look so good blown up but we will see how it goes, I will attempt to vlog and record the process for promotional purposes but tbh the social media, and marketing stuff is my least favorite part of being a growing artist.

“I would never grab a star” - This is the ambition project I mentioned above. To be honest I've been sitting on this idea for about 2 years, I just couldn’t put my finger on exactly how to execute it but its finally coming together in my head.

At first, I was thinking of doing it as a charcoal drawing, but I want it to be implicitly large, and I have such minimal experience with charcoal I didn't want that to hold me back. In all my thinking I thought to myself “…. My love, you are a print artist…” lol and it felt so obvious that I should do this project as a print work. Soooo she is going to be a large-scale wood cut. It's only going to be one layer (thankfully) but because of the size I know it's going to take so long and will be a little hellish to figure out but I'm excited to get started.

“OGA T-PAIN” - This is a relief print that has been itching to be born. It is a piece on the protests that took place in Nigeria last year august, touching on the ongoing economic hardship faced by the citizens of Nigeria. My only challenge for this one is trying to fit into my schedule, the sketch is on the block I just have to get my ass in the studio.

“Bodyyy” - This isn't the official title but I'm doing another body print, you might remember me posting it on my story early this year, I've done the first 2 layers she just needs to be finished. Once again, I just need to get in the studio

“Kountry Kousins Art Pack” - soooo Smino is making a stop here on his tourrr and I want to do an art package very similar to what I just did for Rema, I will try to keep it more contained maybe 2 stickers and a flyer. I want to control the amount I try to put out because I will have overlapping deadlines but that's kinda what I have in mind.

I have a bunch of other ideas but those are the main projects that are fighting for my time right now

Perception
This is the last thing I’ll touch on for this post and I'll let you go, but I've also been struggling to toe the line between public and private, like I've written so many posts that haven't made it online and It’s mostly because im trying to evaluate what is appropriate to share. Like how raw should I actually be online you know.... I think there's something so fun in sharing myself, my thoughts, my experience etc. but I think sometimes it feels inappropriate to spill my guts online. There's a part of me that literally doesn't care and can recognize that my art practice is predicated on this sharing and to a certain extent it seems like I am yearning to be known so I might as well share myself, right? But the feeling of vulnerability is there.... I think it's natural to feel vulnerable though it's not always easy to say what you feel as you are feeling it.

There’s also this contrast I see within myself where I recognize it is so much easier for to show something visually vulnerable as compared to literarily vulnerable. I guess I can chalk that up to practice I have more experience with visual vulnerability but still sometimes writing feels so very raw. But we’ll see, I still want to share, and I don't want to let personal discomfort hold me back from doing that.

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